Bismillah...
Assalamu'alaikum warahmatullah wbt. =)
I am not sure either there are still people reading here I am writing now just to share and express whats in mind a.k.a 'throw out' some from my deep thought. I almost drowning in my own thoughts huhu. So for a clear and healthy mind here it is. May there's some ibrah and manfa'ah to those reading insyaAllah...
At 3 plus pm just now I just realise I din't eat for +-24hrs!!! Imagine that? Indeed thats the truth. My last meal was around 9-10 am yesterday. And after that I am not even eating a piece of kuih I guess. Not even a 'sesuap nasi'. Just drinking. Quick muhasabah in mind, though what I feel is result of not eating a day, how about at akhir zaman during arrival of dajjal huhu since human gonna starve without food stock to fulfill stomach besides zikir?? MasyaAllah...
Then after settling down something, I rush to the kitchen. And there she is, a Mom.
I do told her I din't eat since bla2 and now I am shivering and weak (almost fainted). While I took a sugary drink to reduce my condition, she offered to cook if I want to eat, as she also want to eat together trying the new salted fish given by one of the neighbour. While she cook I just slowly walking around, talked and most of it listen to her stories. Dont have the energy to keep talking much. Trying to survive and pretend like usual. Alhamdulillah after the meal safely digest inside me. There it is. My heart beats' beats super fast and maybe 'masuk angin' or less oxygen to my brain so I sat still to calm down myself and control inhale exhale. My view started to 'samar-samar' on off. Trying to ease myself and rest a lil bit. I've been experience similarly and learn to ease myself otherwise I may fainted as my head condition like that.
By the time I perform prayer, feel like couldnt withstand standing and almost vomit but its Allah that strengthen this slave of HIM. Seriously I appreciate alot by HIS help and Allah's Mercy ArRahman. Allah do give us lenience to talk to Him. Since I couldnt bear again, once finish salam, I lay down on the sajdah continuing with after prayer routines. Allah really sweet right? Not necessarily all the time protocol to talk to Him this and that (indeed there is an adab if making du'a and talking to Him. As possible we can do as our best effort).
Allah is really sweet we can talk verbally with mouth or sometimes in heart. <3 <3 <3
Alhamdulillah now I feel much better. May Allah grant us huda (guidance) towards success fiddarain (duniawi and ukhrawi) and grant us a good health and berkah time and rizq. Allahumma amin amin~~
Thanks for reading until here to those 'sudi' reading. If you got something in mind response or got some ibrah beneficial point here, I am glad to read your comment below.
Till we meet again on next post insyaAllah. Oh yes you may read my random writing in instagram also using same name.
Sincerely,
Dhia Faaezah-who miss to write some story and sharing.
Assalamu'alaikum warahmatullah wbt. =)
I am not sure either there are still people reading here I am writing now just to share and express whats in mind a.k.a 'throw out' some from my deep thought. I almost drowning in my own thoughts huhu. So for a clear and healthy mind here it is. May there's some ibrah and manfa'ah to those reading insyaAllah...
At 3 plus pm just now I just realise I din't eat for +-24hrs!!! Imagine that? Indeed thats the truth. My last meal was around 9-10 am yesterday. And after that I am not even eating a piece of kuih I guess. Not even a 'sesuap nasi'. Just drinking. Quick muhasabah in mind, though what I feel is result of not eating a day, how about at akhir zaman during arrival of dajjal huhu since human gonna starve without food stock to fulfill stomach besides zikir?? MasyaAllah...
Then after settling down something, I rush to the kitchen. And there she is, a Mom.
I do told her I din't eat since bla2 and now I am shivering and weak (almost fainted). While I took a sugary drink to reduce my condition, she offered to cook if I want to eat, as she also want to eat together trying the new salted fish given by one of the neighbour. While she cook I just slowly walking around, talked and most of it listen to her stories. Dont have the energy to keep talking much. Trying to survive and pretend like usual. Alhamdulillah after the meal safely digest inside me. There it is. My heart beats' beats super fast and maybe 'masuk angin' or less oxygen to my brain so I sat still to calm down myself and control inhale exhale. My view started to 'samar-samar' on off. Trying to ease myself and rest a lil bit. I've been experience similarly and learn to ease myself otherwise I may fainted as my head condition like that.
By the time I perform prayer, feel like couldnt withstand standing and almost vomit but its Allah that strengthen this slave of HIM. Seriously I appreciate alot by HIS help and Allah's Mercy ArRahman. Allah do give us lenience to talk to Him. Since I couldnt bear again, once finish salam, I lay down on the sajdah continuing with after prayer routines. Allah really sweet right? Not necessarily all the time protocol to talk to Him this and that (indeed there is an adab if making du'a and talking to Him. As possible we can do as our best effort).
Allah is really sweet we can talk verbally with mouth or sometimes in heart. <3 <3 <3
Alhamdulillah now I feel much better. May Allah grant us huda (guidance) towards success fiddarain (duniawi and ukhrawi) and grant us a good health and berkah time and rizq. Allahumma amin amin~~
Thanks for reading until here to those 'sudi' reading. If you got something in mind response or got some ibrah beneficial point here, I am glad to read your comment below.
Till we meet again on next post insyaAllah. Oh yes you may read my random writing in instagram also using same name.
Sincerely,
Dhia Faaezah-who miss to write some story and sharing.
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